Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Better than I know

I've been struggling with something that I can't talk about right now for the past several days.  Really struggling.  I've been asked to do something that I really don't want to do, but need to/should do.

This morning I was VERY angry and frustrated.  VERY.

I told my husband how upset I was about it and he didn't have much to say about it.  I wrote in my journal, venting and trying to get rid of my anger and frustration.  I haven't felt some of these emotions with such intensity since I was a teenager.  

I haven't wanted to pray about it.  I'd thought about going to the scriptures to find some answers, but because I'm personally studying in Isaiah (a slow in-depth, exhaustive study), I doubted that I'd really find any answers there.

I sat down to lunch today, and said a blessing to thank Heavenly Father for the blessings I do have, and for my yummy turkey noodle soup with homemade noodles I was about to eat.  Part of my prayer was also for understanding - that somehow I could find it as I read my scriptures during my lunch.

I opened my scriptures to my bookmark in Isaiah to where I'd left off and began to read.

The entire chapter was written specifically for me at this moment in time.  I am sure of it.  There is no way that I could have found a clearer answer than what I found in my scriptures today.  Specifically for me and my situation.

While maybe still a little fearful about going forward, I am now at least peaceful and have faith that it will work out and be for the best.  I know that Heavenly Father loves me and knows my wants, needs, desires, and that He also knows what is good for me.  Much better than I know.  I'm grateful for that.

1 comment:

thoughts said...

are you talking about me asking you to follow my blog? Geez! you should have just told me you didnt want to...oh wait, i never asked you to do that!aloefeg